I've been in this beautiful country for 2 weeks and I've learned so much about myself and the Lord in this short time that I've been here.
On Monday night, two of my teammates, Rachel and Sarah, shared their testimonies. Holy powerful! The saying " Never judge a book by its cover" has never been truer!
I grew up in a Catholic home, went to a catholic school up until 8th grade, and would occasionally go to church. Throughout high school some of my friends tried to start a bible study, which I was a part of, but life got busy and it never really grew. I had this view of a Christian as someone who never broke rules, lived a pure life, and never made mistakes-boy was I wrong!
Hearing their testimonies and seeing that they did fall down and made mistakes many times helped me realize God was still loving and forgiving. We are his children and nothing can change that.
This past week I've been struggling with fully committing myself to the Lord and I couldn't figure out why. Recently having a talk with my team, I realized I'm scared of fully trusting and listening to His word and what He tells me. Doing God's word isn't always easy and sometimes we have to sacrifice things that we don't want to and we don't understand why God is asking us to do certain things, but He knows the bigger picture. He has a plan for us that is so much bigger then we can imagine and that's hard for me to grasp.
I'm trying to focus on my relationship with Him and building a trusting and loving foundation.
Opening up and sharing is really hard for me, but I've realized that being vulnerable will allow me to grow closer with God, my team, and the people I love. I'm slowly working on it and it is something that will definitely take time, but I'm happy with my progress!
Also this week there have been many TIA ( This is Africa) moments:
1. Monkeys stealing our bread- that was a sight!
2. Waiting 45 minutes for a cop to show up after our car accident ( everyone is fine, the car not so much) while at least 4 drove by and weren't even phased.
3. Experiencing a 3 hour church service- It went by quicker then expected and I really enjoyed their music!
4. Plans- this week plans have not gone accordingly! We've been running on Swazi time, which really means whatever time you feel like it. We were late to church and bible study and without a car it's really hard to stick to our plans, but we are making the best of it!
Already in this short time I have grown so much and I can't wait to see what else He has in store for me!
I hope all of you have a wonderful and safe 4th of July!
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